What Are You Doing Right Now
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I'm going to share some personal information, wherever I should or not probably not. But I was quite active in the forum when it was started, Scott grabbed me from spiceworks at the time and I quite liked how active this community was getting from the start, I was posting quite a lot a couple years ago, I've been quite quiet the last year and a half. I've suffered depression and anxiety since my early twenties but always loved escaping my thoughts by putting this energy into learning and testing, I've worked for big corporation, I've done sub contracting, I believe my knowledge is very broad. I've always loved computers with my first computer being an 808x IBM with the 5 and a quater floppy disks with dos 3.0 and use to play with gw-basic I believed what it was called at the time. My uncle worked in london at the time when I was 7 years old and that was my first ever pc....I was addicted. I had problems in my child hood and was constantly on the pc to escape outside life in general. Anyways more from the early 90's I managed to secure jobs in computer shops mainly fix and build. then when the industry changed years ago with mobile internet and tablets I put effort into learning basic networking and windows servers. I'm glad I did this steps in the mid 00's as most fix and repair computer shops were closing, anyway the basic point is I've always put my energy and effort into constantly learning new things. but moving on in my 20's I was drinking a lot, diagnosed with depression and anxiety which I battled without medication. but a year and a half ago my partner of 8 years run off with someone else and after that I moved, I was down, had not intrest in using a computer, didn't even have a desk anymore. I now take medication daily as I have been diagnosed with Personality disorder. But now im trying to work on things, last month I brough a desk, setup my monitors and desktops and started slowly getting involed with using the computer more. I't was only last year that I didn't want to be here anymore but I'm glad I've finally got my intrest back into turning my pc on again. I've focused on linux for the last couple of years by reading and using labs. I'm getting the gist of the command line. I still get days where I'm too tired and cant be bothered to sit at my desk, but I believe my intrest is coming back slowly. I 've loved working with computers and it was a shock that I stopped touching one for a year and a half. I feel like I want to explain this to the community as mental health is not discussed enough, especially with men. I feel like a failure sometimes and feel useless but my I know I underestimate my computer knowledge. I just feel it can be a lonely place sometimes sitting on the pc and just reading and testing new things.....I don't want to make anyone feel awkward with this post, but I feel I need to let out how important computers are to me but depression took over the last year and a half and I couldn't bare touching one...
I know everyone has to face their demons. But Im trying to get better and I think setting my desk back up is that little step forward.......Very deep I know, but wanted to post this.... -
@stuartjordan that's a huge step my friend... The first one. Good to see you around here again, and know that you are not alone in that daily struggle.
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@rojoloco Thank you Rojo, small steps forward, I don't want to fall out of love of working with computes and hobbies of using them and life in general... I feel im slowly moving forward. I've had to stop helping one of my freinds/consultant that's been in IT for 40 years, my Knowledge overtook his years ago. But I've even stepped back from helping him. I've still been updating his servers though but that's it, not got involved in any other work with him. I need to get back in small steps, I don't want to rush back in with too much pressure that could be detrimental. I'd be interested if others have been through things in silence. I know public forums are not meant for this type of talk, but I just think mental health effects us all including people in IT like me.
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Thanks for posting @StuartJordan .
It's a big issue made even bigger by silence.
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Watched the first episode of the Bad Batch.
7/10
A bit of scene setting, some major predictability, but decent enough story that it looks promising -
@stuartjordan Thanks for sharing. You're right guys simply don't talk about stuff like mental health amongst one another anywhere close to often enough -- especially on a public forum like this!
Congrats on making personal progress!
Edit: If anybody needs to talk to somebody about stuff, I'd be happy to chat.
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Love when vendors dont communicate an URL change for payment gateways.. then blame you for not knowing. . might be a long day.
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@wrcombs said in What Are You Doing Right Now:
Love when vendors dont communicate an URL change for payment gateways.. then blame you for not knowing. . might be a long day.
I've come to expect little from my vendors.
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onsite fixing a comms issue
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@stuartjordan you just keep going mate. Dont be hard on yourself and don't worry about things when they don't make sense at first.
I learnt to appreciate time.
When I was younger I always wanted to be at the top and felt like a loser when I wasn't, then I realised that if I just wait and keep working, I can get to the top.
Some people say leave it in the hands of God and it'll be sorted for you, but in my case I leave it in the hands of time and it sorts things out for me.
Males are extremely competitive beings, especially in their 20s and 30s and that competitiveness can be between each other and themselves.
Try to slow down & enjoy the small things.
Life in your 20s is the hardest period of life I believe, it does get easier as you age. -
@nadnerb Bad Batch, never heard of it. We just got Binge, are now watching the Americans, it's not bad, but a bit dated.
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@dafyre said in What Are You Doing Right Now:
@wrcombs said in What Are You Doing Right Now:
Love when vendors dont communicate an URL change for payment gateways.. then blame you for not knowing. . might be a long day.
I've come to expect little from my vendors.
I'm learning this. I was here until 6:30 pm last night and found out that it was a file they had me push to the payment devices a week ago that broke it this week.. cause this was the hard end date for this URL...
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Just upgraded my Nextcloud server from 19 to 20 to 21.
No issues and it's actually faster! Yay, upgrades!
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Just got jab#1.
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In Geneseo NY getting some back home grub before emigrating in about a week.
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College Plates from University Hots
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@notverypunny said in What Are You Doing Right Now:
Just got jab#1.
think my wife told me we've had 11 blood clots in Oz in the past 1-2 weeks!
@nadnerB may be able to correct me????
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@scottalanmiller said in What Are You Doing Right Now:
College Plates from University Hots
I have no idea what that means?????
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@siringo It's their take on a Garbage Plate (which originated at Nick Tahoe's in Rochester, NY USA.)
https://www.universityhots.com/menu/#plates
